Scandalous

This article that I mentioned I read, was given to me by a good friend and dedicated blog reader. It had an interesting effect on me. It gave me a thought that has never occurred to me, one that will bring in more readers. Controversy, scandalous and private information, etc. A lot of my posts delve into my observations of the world, things that I think about on a daily basis that you as readers may have thought of or may have taken for granted. As you read, my hopes are that my writing provokes you, changes/increases your thought processes and makes you more aware of them and the world. That alone is fine for me, being the content of this blog which lives up to its title perfectly. However I realized further from this article how vicarious, nosy, and entertained people are about the on-goings in others, especially strangers, lives. I have living proof in fact, my best friend is obsessed with vlogs of complete strangers.

I do give away a lot of personal things about myself, considering it does take a lot for me to give such things away in any spoken conversation. I value trust very much, so this blog exudes that whole process which can be exhilarating yet frightening. I also value every goddamn thing I put out into the world, it is all precious to me. However, I know that I'm good at being vague when needed or desired. I've explained before that I may give a lot away, or describe a great deal about something but it's never the full picture. Furthermore, I often fluctuate between indirectly and directly referring to one or multiple people and over a large course of time. Because I actually give a shit, it's quite hard being a blogger without creating any major disruptions in my relationships with others. There's always plenty of things I really wish I could blog about, but half the time they are about people who regularly read it anyways. As well as I don't want to be generally offensive. Sometimes I will reveal such, but most of the time I would rather be the one telling that person(s) to their face, or in other instances it is more negative things that I rather they not know at all. Then there's privacy for people involved and myself. There are things that can be misinterpreted and taken the wrong way given that writing lacks all other verbal and non-verbal cues to add more meaning to the words. So I guess I never explicitly informed the readers who are complete strangers that there is often more interesting things going on in my life, my relationships than I feel to convey because those involved parties are usually reading this too. I have to create a balance somehow.

There's also incredibly private information that I wish to discuss here, for the sake of self reflection and further analysis and as a release. However, those things are something I want someone very personal to me to find out on their own through me directly or after much time spent with me. I have another "Confessions of a Blogger" post in progress which isn't a series of personal statements directed towards others, but a series of incredibly personal things about me, confessions if you will. I'm still hesitant. But I will post it although there's more intensity behind it that I will conceal, but I'm planning to feel it out. See what reactions I get, if any at all! And perhaps I might make this blog more personal and scandalous, heh.

Because I wanted to just spring that Confessions post on you with no warning or introduction I left out the fact that I have done something similar before, here's the only previous one I could find after much searching.

Now my mind and eyes are in a daze from my long and hard search through old posts, so I shall retire from writing for the day.