Culture Dish

• Nerdy jokes turn me on.
• I used to yodel in the shower when I was young.
• I hate how products that are for women are sold to women through the male gaze. Victoria's Secret is a good example. Makes me want to stab my eyes out.
• I like to make the sound, "Eeeeee!" when I'm excited about something.
• Although I pretty much always know I'm dreaming, I rarely do or am able to control my dreams. So far the only dreams that I have consistently controlled were those of Sparky.
• I find it sexy, men on motorbikes that are very well dressed.
• Women generally outlive men. The better sex? Heh.
• I wonder if I'm doomed in relationships because all the things I once loved about the person eventually annoys me.
• The world still makes films about the concept of whether we know if we're in love. All of this further emphasizes that no one knows, it is completely indefinable.
• I absolutely love when someone gets my dirty jokes or my "that's what she said" giggle before I even explicitly say anything.
• I can stare out a window at nature and other people literally all day.
• My heart races easily.
• Everything about water is therapeutic and sexual.
• My relationship with men is a power struggle...with myself.
• It sickened me one day while I was sitting at a coffee shop and a couple were at a table together. They were both fiddling on their smartphones and not interacting with each other at any depth. I have a love-hate relationship with technology advancements. But mostly I hate the ever rapidly increasing laziness in human and cultural development. I love digital expression, but nothing means more to me than raw human interaction.
• I am the most awkward person in the world when I talk to people on the phone. Originally I thought it was because I rarely do it and because I can't hear well on it. While all this is still true, it really is because I can't see them. I can't see or feel them, their body language, facial expression, emotions. This makes communication just about impossible for me. I feel like I'm blind and deaf. I depend on those things far more than I actually do the literal words that are spoken. Thus, phone conversations are just ridiculous for me.
• Anatomical art and jewelry makes me jizz my pants....hardcore.
• A good deal of the time I am trying my best to control myself from making out with particular people.
• In addition to the note I made about my mind being really fast, word associations are incredibly interesting for me. With the rapid jumping and bouncing my mind does, I can never, ever say the first thing that actually came to my mind. I lose track of it maybe half of the time anyways. Or it's too dirty and I'm not going to admit it.
• I'm still constructing my lover's list, for it is epically long. I had no idea it would be this massive and actually incredibly fun. I worked on it all day yesterday and I know there's still more to do. I will possibly post it within a week, but I will have to work something out to post a link to the post if I ever add more to it, because I know I will. It's amazing because I've never done this. I have overly high expectations and am easily disappointed in people so I never wanted to construct any list of desires I have of people or anything for the matter. But I decided to jump in and do it for the sake of being more aware of my wants so I can actually be consciously aware of it when I'm around people I'm interested in. Basically, so I don't do the usual and date someone who really isn't good for me nor deserves me.
• If watching a film alone, it's guaranteed that I will rewind and replay sexy scenes.
• Although I'm very fast in the bathroom, I absolutely hate going for the sake of missing out on something or just generally being in a hurry. I almost never use the restroom before leaving a public place when having another important destination to go to, despite that I probably really have to go.
• It is completely and absolutely impossible for me to separate my emotions from physical touch and pleasure. Not only are my emotions greatly ingrained in my touch, but when someone else is touching me it is always so much more. This new-found and very foundational fact is another reason why meaningless and casual sex does not exist in my world. They just can't be separated.
• I'm open minded and firmly believe that people like whatever they want to like, everyone is different. However, it does pain me in my heart just the slightest whenever I learn that someone I know dislikes a movie that I like or have enjoyed.
• I have a deep love for facial hair on men.
• I am a very direct and straight forward person, but I am also a master of dropping hints. I don't want to have to do all the work sometimes!
• I've discussed my intensity of empathy many times before, but there are several aspects to empathy. I have talked about ways in which I consciously become empathetic, or put effort to it. But I realized on the other spectrum it exists just as strong with me. Naturally, without being aware or without even trying, I can feel people. It's quite strong too and it mostly happens when there are no words spoken. It's really incredible and fascinating but also something I can't avoid even if I try or wanted to. I feel like a petri dish of emotions. People pollute me just by being near me.
• Well, I'm done for now. I'm going to add more to my Love Your Tree journal since I haven't done anything to it in a very long time.