Bonds

I notice now that it's been difficult for me to become close to female family members. There's always been some hesitance that I feel and can never really name exactly why. There is 3 reasons that I can attribute to it though I do not think they are the only ones.

One, my decrease in relationship bond with my mother since my teenage years.
Two, my hesitance is normal with people in general to some extent.
Three, I grew up mostly with males. I had only a brother for a sibling who is nearly 2 years younger than me. And a male cousin who is nearly a year younger than me. My cousin and I were much closer than my brother most of the time and someone I consider to be a best friend as well. Between these 2 boys were their male friends as well. Plus the many neighborhood boys that I grew up with. So this goes to explain also why I have many male friends and get along with them harmoniously.