Intellectual. Intellectual. Intellectual.

I don't know how many times I've said the word the past several days. I have not had such an intellectual conversation with a stranger in a very long time. Now my brain is continuing that stimulation. I guess, my conversations with people lately have not really been stimulating. I'm not saying my conversations with friends are not necessarily. Just lately I have been taking the time spent with friends to exchange stories of recent happenings rather than to really delve into other intellectual things. I feel so poetic. My usual outlook on things has been awakened from its period of numbness. Numbness due to numerous variables, as we all experience. It is not a usual occurrence where someone asks me questions about me. So it causes me to think about those things more and to dig into a different explanation that I have not thought about in years. So now every conversation I've had since I have been doing the same. Reflecting back on old times, causes and effects of the things which I have passion for now. Massive Attack for example, I just emailed my friend a song from them and was remembering what it was that really started getting me into all of their music. Dreams, astronomy, astrology, art, film. All of these things have a story of origin. I really need to blog about these more, although I did have some of my "Obsession" posts which I still have some more to cover. But I have a different explanations for every period of my life for the growing passion of particular things. Maybe not always, but given the situation in which someone is curious about something I usually describe the first thought in my head, which would be completely different from the thought that would be in my head had you asked me a month prior or later. And that is definitely only a small portion of the full answer to a specific question. My explanations and mind processes are far beyond a short conversation. It will take a long friendship for me to answer questions to the fullest. Oh the lovely human mind.
You change, grow, evolve. As you get older [I'm still reminding myself of this] your outlook grows as well as you are able to better pinpoint the causes and arousal of things/passions/interests/dislikes/etc.
But the "Obsession" posts are here: #1, #2, #3, #4, #4.5, and #5. In fact, looking at these older posts make me realize, although they are deep, don't nearly share the same depth as my more recent posts. You are witnessing my growth, my destruction, my regeneration.
Someone had asked me why/how I got into astronomy. And quite frankly, not a single soul has asked me that before. I was so thrown off, that the first thing that popped into my head was to describe my childhood. My childhood consisted of a lot of time spent camping. My parents, especially my dad loves camping. Nature is my dad's real home. My parents, in fact, went camping on their honeymoon. And they have taken me with them ever since I was less than a year old. I haven't camped in a long time, although my dad still does it from time to time. I have a desire to do this with friends, but time and money never works out a harmonious schedule for us. But anyways, camping always involved sitting around the fire and watching the sky. All my camping experiences come to me in flashes of images from all the years, all the locations, all the activities, all the views. I cannot separate the images into separate trips or specific locations and times. This photo album of my mind has stayed with me all these years. The sky, space, is the unknown. And as I have countlessly described [usually in school] that people are fascinated with and/or fear the unknown. Personally, I'm not close to being scared of it. I'm utterly enthralled by it. Scorpios "have a philosophical turn of mind and may become interested in religion and the occult." "Scorpios delve into the powers of the mind that others are afraid of. This is the zodiacal sign of birth, sex, death, and regeneration-areas of human existence in which a person confronts the mysteries of the universe." That's to sum up. Wow, I really need to get crackin' on those other "Obsession" posts. Now my mind is on a million tangents I know I'm forgetting something. I got completely distracted by reading my astrology bible [which no matter how many times I read I learn something new] The Only Astrology Book You'll Ever Need. Some day I will have to quote some things from there that I just reviewed and basically describes everything this blog is about in only two pages. This is one big reason why I fucking love astrology. It may not apply to everyone, I recognize and understand that. I don't want to discuss my general opinions and recognitions when it comes to astrology today, but for me on my own personal level, astrology has been nothing but self-learning for me. I, have a hard time pinpointing feelings and stating clear simplified thoughts. Self expression is a big ordeal for me. It's never fucking simple. If it was, this blog would definitely not have 935 posts. Astrology simplifies those well known complexities, extremities, intensities that I have boiling in my mind and heart. I never realized...that I'm actually too much to handle. But the thing is, I am an absolute professional when it comes to repression. I do it all in making the lives around me simple. But I guess that only further complicates my life. Oh boy. This is why I love having a blog. I can talk to myself in a way that no one has to think I'm crazy. Crazy shopping bag lady anyone?
I'm not crazy by the way. I'm actually probably the sanest person you know. The sane kind that does not make me less interesting. I'm interesting all in myself. Hell, I don't need to be crazy, got enough going on here.
I really need to stop before I lose you guys. But I guess I'm doing alright since my blog visit tally is racking up! Anyways, enjoy the night.