Livid

I was so furious I couldn't fall asleep. I almost gave up on sleep but there isn't a soul that I know that would of been up at that time. I haven't been this mad since almost a year ago. Same douchebag story, over again. There's so much I want to say, so much. But I've just about spent my energy on it. As much as I don't want to be mad, I can't let it go, scratch that, it does not deserve to be let go. I don't deserve this. This is all complete pure fucking bullshit.

On a possible lighter note, I did eventually get some sleep and hence more dreams.
To see or dream that you are smoking a cigar, represents luxury and a relaxed state of mind. You are in control of your own emotions and passions. According to Freud, a cigar is a phallic symbol and is representative of masculinity and raw energy. This dream symbol may also serve as a symbol for someone you know who smokes cigars.
To see the beach in your dream, symbolizes the meeting between your two states of mind. The sand is symbolic of the rational and mental processes while the water signifies the irrational, unsteady, and emotional aspects of yourself. It is a place of transition between the physical/material and the spiritual.
To see sand in your dream, signifies a shift in perspective or a change in your attitude. Consider the familiar phrase, "the sands of time" in which it may be suggesting that you are wasting your time or letting time pass you by.
To see people you don't know in your dream, denotes hidden aspects of yourself that you need to confront.
To dream that you are at a party, suggests that you need to get out more and enjoy yourself. If the party is bad, then it indicates that you are unsure of your social skills.
To dream that you are in a tent, indicates that you need a temporary change to your daily routine. You need to take time off and get away from the daily grind. Alternatively, the dream may mean instability and insecurity in your current situation. You do not want to settle down. Dreaming that you are in a tent, may be a pun on your "in-tent" or intentions.
To see a pool of water in your dream, indicates that you need to understand and deal with your emotions. You need to dive right in. Alternatively, a pool may indicate your need for cleansing. You need to wash away the past.
To dream that you are babysitting, suggests that you need to care for the child within yourself.
To save a child, signifies your attempts to save a part of yourself from being destroyed. If you dream that you are separated from your children, then it symbolizes failure in some personal endeavor or a setback in some ideal you had.

I have been dreaming a lot about children lately. I pretty much rarely ever did in the past.