Phoenix

For the last few weeks I've been on a "break" with my brother. We had a deep fight that really brought our so called relationship up to the surface. Luckily some conversations with my mom and my best friend really helped me figure out how I feel about him and what I have to do from here on out. I finally got a chance to talk to him today and make things civil. Nothing is really solved, but will be better because I have to get my mind into a different perspective when dealing with him. It will take a lot of time and effort on my part, but it's all I can do now.

After talking to him and looking into him in a new light, I've realize one of the biggest differences between him and I. I can rise from the ashes, he cannot. He is still stuck in the mire. He has overcome one of his biggest issues and has come into sobriety. That is amazing in itself. However, he still has an addictive personality amongst other things. When my brother is down on himself, when things go shitty, he fuels that fire and lets it continue. He doesn't quite know how to get himself out or even realize that he needs to get out and change. It's a really slow process. Something that I cannot relate to because I move at rapid pace.

It all makes me realize what I've gone through, overcome, and that I still remain myself. Like the Phoenix, one of the main symbols of a Scorpio, I have been reborn many times. I've been broken down, I've been at my lows, and I get myself out of it, with the help of my friends, but mostly with my mentality. I've worked hard to get to where I am and who I am now. I need to recognize that in myself and keep it alive.