2.08.2011

Dreams of Coping

Yet again I have two dreams to document. Brace yourself, this may be long.

The first included something quite relevant to my life. I believe I am coming down with a cold as of last night. I'm starting to cough and currently my legs are incredibly sore. So in my dream I was in bed sleeping and not feeling so well. At some point I wake up in the dream and see two friends in my room. One was an old friend of mine from high school, we will call him T. The other person was a girl I believe and one who I don't know in real life. It's late in the night and my television is on an they are just sitting against my bed hanging out. The living arrangement in this dream reflects exactly that in my waking life. I share a wall with my dad, our bedrooms touch and I'm always worried about waking him, especially since I'm such a night owl. In the dream T kept being really loud no matter how many times I told him to keep it down or shut up. It was making me a nervous wreck and didn't help that I already wasn't feeling well. They had brought me flowers and food which were scattered around my room.
My brother came into my room a couple times also. T went to my kitchen to grab me some medicine and comes back with roughly 10 different pills, expecting me to take them all. This makes me nervous as I'm standing next to my brother staring at the pills intently. He interrupts my thought process by saying something about that I shouldn't do it and remember what happened. He was thinking I was going to swallow all the pills and overdose and he was referring to his own overdose. This struck a major emotional response in me as he wouldn't let me explain that I was only trying to figure out what each of the pills were so I could only take two of ones that I needed, not all of them. He kept talking over me and then I finally just slapped his face. I slapped him with a closed hand and not very hard but I noticed in the dim lighting that I had hit him in a place on his face where he already had an injury.
Now I want to describe what my brother looked like in this dream. Often it happens to me that the people I dream of never have the same face or body but I know who it is. He had a similar build as he really does but his face was completely different. He was more white in complexion, and even seemed to have dirty blonde hair. He had strong features and big lips as in reality, but it was just different. He also had a cleft lip that closely resembles one of my friends and fresh scratches on both sides of his face. After I slapped him he was upset because I had hurt him where it already hurt. I instantly apologized and put my hands to his face and really noticed the scratches and asked him what happened. I don't know what his explanation was but something tells me someone else did it to him. I believe I woke up after that.

The next dream I had is a little more complicated to explain because it was another one of those dreams within a dream. I won't get into it so much because there's just really a couple things I wanted to bring attention to. As well as it's interesting that I have been having these dreams within dreams so often now.
I was, again, sleeping in my bed and I was dreaming something again and woke up...I can't really keep track of it. I remember waking up within the dream and feeling a little jolt at the end of the bed. It felt very much like when Sparky used to try to jump on my bed. I surely thought it was Sparky. But the animal did jump up on my bed and ran over to where my head was on my heap of pillows and laid down. It was a small brown bunny rabbit. It started to hump my pillow/shoulder. It was really cute but just kept trying to hump me. I just tried to subtly move away from it but I was mostly amused by it. Apparently a female friend of my dad was at my house and she was the owner of the rabbit. It was even more amusing that such a small thing was able to jump onto my bed. However, despite the humping, the little guy reminded me very much of Sparky and had this fondness for me because he kept laying down next to my head. He would run down my hallway and just keep coming back to me on the bed. It was really adorable, with very big brown eyes. That's really all I can remember.

Having a dream within a dream may be safer and more acceptable way to express material from your unconscious. The dream within a dream protects you, the dreamer from waking up. Such dreams often reflect a hidden but crucial issue which you need to acknowledge and confront.
And I have these false awakening dreams too.
To see a rabbit in your dream, signifies luck, magical power, and success. You have a positive outlook on life. Alternatively, rabbits symbolize abundance, warmth, fertility and sexual activity. Perhaps your sex life needs to be kept in check. The dream can also be associated with Easter time and your own personal memories of Easter.
In particular, to see a white rabbit in your dream, symbolizes faithfulness in love. The white rabbit also serves as a guide to steer you toward the right direction.
If the rabbit is hopping in your dream, then it indicates fertility. You will be surrounded by children. Alternatively, the dream may be analogous to your lack of commitment and how you jump from one thing or another. 

The interpretations are pretty interesting. I love these things sometimes, especially when they make me laugh. "Sex life needs to be kept in check." What sex life?! And please don't surround me with children. I also may have said it before but a majority of these dreams within dreams and false awakening dreams involve Sparky. Obviously his death still affects me a great deal, so I guess my dreams are trying to help me cope. Coping or not, they make me relive a reality with him which is nice but also very depressing. It's the worst because as well aware as I am during the dream that I know I am dreaming, I always have this feeling then and when I wake up that he is still alive. Eh, I don't want a write about it anymore today.

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