The Beauty of Appeals

Last night, exhausted, bummed, and bored from a long day's worth of unstimulating activity at work. I turned the television on and relaxed on my bed post-shower [instead of doing homework]. The show Criminal Minds was on and although I did not watch it with volume on, I watched a majority of the episode "The Big Wheel." I did so for two main reasons, the killer had a major habit of OCD which always fascinates the hell out of me. But also the killer was quite attractive, even more so in his oddity. I have a tendency to find attraction to men that resemble Maynard James Keenan [an exemplary picture in the link] and who could sport a bald head or the opposite and thick rimmed glasses and an inexpressive face. Alex O'Loughlin played the part of the killer who I just found out has already won my attraction in his role in the newest film The Back-Up Plan, which I actually intend to see...some time. The damn guy is Australian too! They always find me. Now, I hate to be the one to brag about such things here, but I just can't help it.
But this leads me to two additional slightly related things.

Since I mentioned The Back-Up Plan which stars Jennifer Lopez, well I actually like her...well I like her movies specifically. The "chick flicks" alright. Particularly, The Wedding Planner...fuck, I watch that movie literally every time it's on TV. I can't help it, I love it. And I really enjoy looking at her face. I love the curves of her face, I do think she is beautiful. So yeah, I will continue that trend and see The Back-Up Plan.

As for the second thing...well, I forgot what that was. I blame beauty for washing my mind clear...until the next time! Oh yeah! I remember, one of the main characters on Criminal Minds, played by Paget Brewster, is also very beautiful [I was also especially watching her because I was trying to figure out why she looked familiar, she's in the film Eulogy]. I find her dark hair and style of bangs and facial features a very wonderful combination and started thinking about that hair style on myself. I had one friend, in particular, in mind while thinking about this. Ever since high school this friend has said that her dream is to see me with long jet black hair and a nice tight black [or was it red] dress and red lipstick. Just to really show what I got and to show my Italian heritage as well. I find it a beautiful visual and agree with her, I promised her that someday she will get to see that. I personally, do love solid black hair, however it is very hard for me to do only one hair color. But it will happen someday. Prior to cutting my own bangs over a year ago, as I was contemplating it with this same friend, she said I should go with the straight across look, as this same actress has. She said it would look awesome on me, but I was having a hard enough time with the decision as it was [oddly enough] and went with sideways bangs. Since I'm speaking of hair, the contradictions of my desires can get really annoying. I have three major desires at the moment with my hair. The first, shaving it all off and starting over, having a bald head and having incredibly short hair are very appealing to me. It is, indeed, something I want to experience at least once in my life. Next, is to have long dreads, really long, ugh the wait is so hard. I want them to be more and more multicolored as well. The third is long undreaded hair, much like what I was talking about, possibly black or black and red and maybe bangs...just something wholly different. I realized the long process of my dread development is particularly hard for me because of my short term likeness and easily sprouted boredom with hair and physical appearance/expression. I do not have much patience when it comes to hair and always end up cutting it short. If I want something, I want it now and I will make it happen. Yes...that applies to just about everything with me. Or at the least, as I've mentioned more and more lately [as so have many around me], I very much know what I want.

In other news, I find it humorous that I have been asked repeatedly through the semester by various people in my Courtship & Marriage class for notes. One student, particularly, has missed a lot of classes due to other responsibilities and illnesses. She actually was a fellow high school classmate so she already knew me. I talked to her once in actual class [with the exception of today] and the first time she missed classed she managed to email me asking for notes and I have done this many times for her. She finally brought up the possibility of compensating me for all the notes I have been sharing with her. So today I got my 20 dollars and bought myself some Chipotle that is located not far from campus. For some odd goddamn reason I have forgotten the existence of Chipotle near campus [well, I have never been to that location either]. So that may get me in some trouble...luckily there isn't much left of school anyways. I'm done in exactly 2 weeks!! Oh, but the reason I found the note taking and sharing amusing is because I'm the deaf one here. ASU specifically has note-taking options that pay other students to take notes for people with so called "disabilities" and here I'm the one providing the notes for the hearing. I know it's a little different, for the students aren't actually present but I still laugh at it anyways. As well as I actually feel quite accomplished and well, responsible because I have not missed a single lecture for that class. My other classes, well I've ditched them on a few occasions. Today is a perfect example, I accidentally set my alarm for an hour later than intended and accidentally missed my first class. I'm not worried about it at all, I just really want to get my paper on Andy Warhol back [because I have already intentionally ditched that class last week, heh].
I have more academic news, but will put that into a separate post.