1.31.2010

The World Is A Vampire

Seriously. What the Fuck?


I hate being stopped, being told what to do or not do. Don't try to control me.

I love when I really enjoy music when I'm engrossed in something whether it being writing or making art.

Sex. Once you go to a Scorpio you can't turn back.

Scorpio January horoscope recap: A helpful new chapter begins as Jupiter moves into Pisces on January 17. You'll get the benefit of the doubt this month, but you may need to sharpen your hearing to "get" the message. Be less forceful than you think you have to be, particularly between second quarter and Full Moon. Patience will count. Yeah, sounds about right. Wonder what next month has in store for me.

I've been meeting Pisces left and right lately. Or as I should more accurately say, my "recently added" of the fanclub are all Pisces.

Did I deserve this? Did I bring this amongst myself? Why do I attach myself? Why am I angry? I guess I'm just hurt. Time to take my own advice again: "You have control over your emotions. If you want to be happy, be happy." I had to just tell my brother this yesterday, for he is having issues with his girlfriend of over two years. Really, life is short and I know the older I get the more I will look back and slap myself in the face for all the time that has been wasted not being happy or being stressed or whatever it goddamn may be.

I sound angrier than I actually am. Or maybe I'm denying myself.

To whom it may concern: I'm glad you finally made up your mind about me. I don't need the going back and forths of you liking me and wanting me around regardless, to me being around too much. I apparently couldn't do anything right by you.

Is this what you wanted?

It's not that I am weak. It's that I want it. I choose to.
You don't know what's going on in my mind.

Protein cocktail. Nothing about this product is right. The name. The fact that it's in a spray bottle. That it says "Stiff drink..." under the name. I don't know how many times it will continue to boggle my mind when I see it at work.



To dream that you get wet from the rain, indicates cleansing from your troubles and problems. Rain also symbolizes fertility and renewal.
To see and hear rain falling, symbolizes forgiveness and grace. Falling rain may be a metaphor for tears, crying and sadness.
To dream that you are wearing high heels, represents femininity and glamour. You feel confident and self-assured. Alternatively, you may feel restricted and limited in your role as a female. You do not think that you can fully and freely express yourself.
To dream that you are wearing a skirt, represents the signals that you are conveying or sending out. It also symbolizes femininity or your sense of sexuality. The dream may also be a metaphor on an issue that you are "skirting" around over and not confronting head on.
To see your boss in your dream, represents the bossy or authoritative side of your own personality. Your boss may reveal self-confidence and the assertive aspect of yourself. It is telling of your issues of control and authority. Alternatively, to see your boss in your dream may indicate your over-involvement or obsession with your work. Negatively, the boss in your dream may symbolize your limitations and lack of freedom/originality.
Consider also the relationship you have with your boss. This may provide clues to work-related stress or issues that need to be resolved.
To dream that you are at work, indicates that you are experiencing some anxiety about a current project or task. The dream may also be telling you that you need to "get back to work". Perhaps you have been slacking and need to pick up the pace.
If you are female and dream that you see or are a boy, then it indicates that you are developing the masculine aspects of character. Alternatively, it may represent your feelings about a real-life boy who is important and significant to you. You may have a crush on this boy and your waking thoughts of him has carried over into the dream world. Your motherly instincts may be taking over.
To dream that you are giving directions, refers to your goals and search for purpose. You are on a path toward self-realization.
To see water in your dream, symbolizes your unconscious and your emotional state of mind. Water is the living essence of the psyche and the flow of life energy. It is also symbolic of spirituality, knowledge, healing and refreshment. If the water is calm, clear, then it signifies that you are in tune with your spirituality. It denotes serenity, peace of mind, and rejuvenation. If you are splashed by water, then it represents your need to be revitalized and more expressive. To dream that water is boiling, suggests that you are expressing some emotional turmoil. It also may mean that feelings from your unconscious are surfacing and ready to be acknowledged. You need to let out some steam.
To dream that you are underwater, suggests that you are feeling overcome with emotions and are in need of greater control in your life. You may be in over your head regarding some situation.
To see a picture in your dream, symbolizes a mental imprint that remains persistent in your mind. There may be permanence in your actions. Also consider the pun on "picture this" or "seeing the big picture" in a situation.
To see a lifeboat in your dream, suggests that you need help in coping with your emotions. You want to be rescued from a current situation that is beyond your control.
To dream that you are swimming, suggests that you are exploring aspects of your unconscious mind and emotions. The dream may be a sign that you are seeking some sort of emotional support. It is a common dream image for people going through therapy.
To dream that you are swimming underwater, suggests that you are completely submerged in your own feelings. You are forcing yourself to deal with your emotional difficulties.
To dream that you are in a flood, represents your need to release some sexual desires. If the flood is raging, then it represents emotional issues and tension. Your repressed emotions are overwhelming you. Consider where the flood is for clues as to where in your waking life is causing you stress and tension. Alternatively, the dream may indicate that you are the one who is overwhelming others with your demands and strong opinion.
To see a gentle flood in your dream, indicates that your worries over a certain matter will soon be swept away.
To see an African American in your dream, signifies your roots and heritage. You may need to discover the soul within your own self. Additionally, you are ready to be more expressive and creative.

To see your mother in your dream, represents the nurturing aspect of your own character. Mothers offer shelter, comfort, life, guidance and protection. Some people may have problems freeing themselves from their mothers and are thus seeking their own individuality and development.
To dream that you are having a conversation with your mother, denotes a matter that has preoccupied your mind and you are not sure how to deal with it in your waking life. It indicates unresolved problems that still need to be worked out with your mother.
To dream that you or someone is yelling, represents repressed anger that need to be expressed.
To dream that you or someone is cursing, refers to your inner fears. It also means that you are becoming a hardened person.
To see your grandfather in your dream, symbolizes tradition, protection, wisdom, and a caring nature. Consider the qualities and characteristics that exist in your own grandfather.
To dream that you are filling your car with gasoline, symbolizes your need to take better care of your Self. You need to be revitalized.
To dream that you are at the gas station, indicates a need to reenergize and revitalize yourself. It may also suggest that to help and be an assistant to others.
You may be running low on energy. The dream also represents your ability to convert outside resources and use it for your own needs.
To dream that you are lost, suggests that you have lost your direction in life or that you have lost sight of your goals. You may be feeling worried and insecure about the path you are taking in life. Alternatively, you may be trying to adjust and get accustomed to a new situation in which the rules and conditions are ever changing.
To see your brother in your dream, may symbolize some aspect of your relationship with him. It can also serve to remind you that someone in your waking life has certain characteristics/behavior similar to your brother's.
To see the woods in your dream, represents life, fertility, rejuvenation, and spring. Alternatively, it symbolizes the unknown and unconscious. You may be discovering your instinctual nature.
To dream that you are walking through the woods, signifies your return to an aspect of yourself that is innocent and spiritual. If you are walking out of the woods, then the dream could be a literal depiction of being "out of the woods" or being in the clear.
To dream that you are lost in the woods, indicates that you are starting a new phase in your life. You are expressing some anxiety about leaving behind the familiar and what you know.

To dream that you are driving a vehicle, signifies your life's journey and your path in life. The dream is telling of how you are moving and navigating through life. If you are driving and cannot see the road ahead of you, then it indicates that you do not know where you are headed in life and what you really want to do with yourself. You are lacking direction and goals. If you are driving on a curvy road, then it indicates that you are have difficulties in achieving your goals and the changes associated with it. Alternatively, driving a car in your dream, is analogous to your sex life and sexual performance. Consider how you are driving and what kind of car you are driving and how it relates to your waking sex life.
To dream that you are driving a car in reverse, suggests that you are experiencing major setbacks in your goals. In particular, if you drive in reverse into a pool of water, then it means that you emotions are literally holding you back.

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