Blackout

Last night I was in bed, reading The Lovely Bones. Prior to my electricity going out, the book came to a part that made me cry harder than I have in the past few days. The main character is telling her story, from "her heaven" and the dog which she grew up with, that she often mentions in the story which always invokes tears in me, had died. And the last few sentences of that chapter just did it to me:
"I waited for him to sniff me out, anxious to know if here, on the other side, I would still be the little girl he had slept beside. I did not have to wait long: he was so happy to see me, he knocked me down."

Ah, it fucking kills me.

And a few pages later, my power went out due to a crazy storm outside. So I decided to just go to sleep but a little worried about getting up a the right time. Around 4 in the morning I woke up and noticed the power was on so I set my alarm again, luckily I woke up just one minute before my alarm would go off anyways. Today is the last official day of regular classes. Although my first class which I usually get up for at 7am, was over last week so now I just have to turn in an exam. I'm so glad I don't have to get up that early anymore. And now I have exactly a week until I am done! Woo!

The storm also got me thinking about some childhood fears. I have always been scared of being struck by lightning or my house catching on fire, but even more scared that it would happen while I was deaf and sleeping. But this list I had constructed, which only contained one thing, if a fire or such thing would happen to my home, the first and only thing I would definitely grab is Sparky. Last night, I realize he doesn't need my saving anymore.