Dear January

So, I start my new job tomorrow. This month is gonna be a little crazy, well my life is only going to begin to be more hectic. Lots of changes, drastic changes. I've been so busy doing all sorts of stuff and sometimes nothing that I'm still not blogging much. I've just got a lot on my mind and I barely sit in front of the computer unless it's to listen to music or finally take a break and watch some Netflix. All in all, I'm very excited and nervous, naturally. I'm also sad to announce that I will be missing an upcoming Tool concert. They come to Tucson just before I get my first paycheck. I'm still broke as a damn joke, so it's a sacrifice I'll make.

My sleeping schedule is immediately of my utmost worries. It's been further messed up due that I was sick, again, this last week. So tonight I will need to jump into bed extra extra extra early and hope that I will fall asleep and get at least 4 or 5 hours of sleep. That's all I ask for now.

I've also had some difficulties, with my extremely limited funds to find clothing that will be appropriate. I believe I found enough to get me through the first two weeks until I get paid. Today my friend and I went and bought a bunch of make up [concealer and powder] to cover the tattoo on my chest. It's a cheaper alternative for now. I'm actually wearing the make up on my chest now, so far it is holding up well.

So now I just need to manage my money for gas to travel to work and back. And sleep.



It's pretty funny, I usually hate January. It's never been a good time for me. Some reasons are lost on me at the moment, but other reasons involve the cold weather and the fact that I've typically gone through break ups around this time. I am also not a person of "New Year's Resolutions" but all in all, I'm welcoming this year more than I have any other year. So far my "horoscopes" and a shallow tarot reading are making this year a very welcoming and life changing one for me.

To elaborate, my career and romantic horoscope for the year 2012 seem quite relevant to me. I am not going to get into the details to remind you that I don't personally like horoscopes, but some very little ones can be intriguing/relevant/spot on/etc. The Scorpio career overview discusses my being "pushed to new grounds" which definitely stands true since I will be starting a new job. It discusses that I may have felt that I "was all over the map the past few years," this is definitely true, unfortunately. The last line refers to my friends being the ones to further my career goals, to never underestimate the power of who I know. For starters, I got this job from a new friend I've acquired months ago.

The Scorpio romantic overview discusses that the ability to have a deep soulful connection with someone determines my  getting into relationships from now on. It centers on a theme of what I will stop "putting up with". This is a long running issue of mine, putting up with stuff I really shouldn't or necessarily want to. I'm still working on it and am being more conscious of it. I am currently dating someone and we'll see how that goes!

Next, I had a friend do this almost rip-off version of a tarot reading. It was used with a regular deck of cards instead of tarot cards. My friend had this done to him a night prior so he tried it on me. It's very brief, not nearly in depth because he didn't know all the rules, but relied on his friend to tell him the meanings of my cards over the phone. I took 3 random cards from the deck. My first card was the 10 of spades, the second was the 8 of diamonds, and the third was the 8 of hearts. What was described to me followed the lines that this last year was not a very lucky year for me [absolutely true]. My life will be very hectic and I will want to spend some time with myself but I won't really be able to. And finally, this year will be full of celebrations and parties [also true because I've been imagining/planning it already].

So that is all that's brewing in my head at the moment. Gotta go get some things done before my early bedtime. Hope all is well with all of you, welcome to 2012!