Connect 15

Getting to that list today. So this post starts at exactly 1:11pm Sunday, October 24th, and will probably end about 5 hours later. I am currently at the usual coffee shop, drinking a bottle of coke, attempting to study. I made the decision today that the little breaks I will take in between studying will consist of me blogging. Intermittently blogging. I actually do this somewhat often but end up just focusing on the blog because you know, when a thought is flowing you just can't stop it. Plus, I just have a tendency to want to do the funner things...like most people. Although I do enjoy studying osteology a great deal, just the tediousness of studying that dulls me. For my studying, I found this super awesome website as a study aid. It doesn't have everything, but definitely a lot.

Well, the studying hasn't yet begun, but I will finally put on some Broken Social Scene and lose myself in the bones of the thorax, shoulder, upper limbs and hands, and the vertebrae for my upcoming test. And the first piece of news I'd like to say before I do that is yesterday the sun moved into Scorpio, so at last, we are here. Home sweet home.

 To continue in some relative fashion, because we [or the sun] are now in Scorpio, that also means my birthday is coming up real soon. This is all happening so fast that I'm really unprepared. I mean, I have made my birthday plans, sent invitations, and made half of the reservations so far but my mind is not in the usual mind state of "It's my birthday! It's my birthday!!" yet. Not only that, but I'm also not mentally aware or prepared for the fact that I will be seeing A Perfect Circle incredibly soon. Jeeze! All of this is going to be awesome though, but I need to get some priorities straight in order to enjoy the crazy 4 days of birthday/concert celebrations. I've decided to have a fun eventful birthday by enjoying sushi and sake in the early evening and then topping it off with some bowling. It's crazy that I'm actually making reservations for up to twenty people. My family of friends has been increasing much over the years and I am continuously amused by the fact that I have a great and close relationship with most of them. This is an oddity because my entire life has been polluted with so-called "friends." They're still there, but at least I recognize them right away instead of allowing myself to be walked all over. That goes in a lot of ways.

So next, Scorpius Dance Company. Four years ago I saw their legendary Vampire Tale, and it was incredible. Just this previous week I saw it again. In pure honesty and obviousness, it only gets better and better over the years. Some of the reasons as to why it is better is a bit harder to explain but what I can say was that it is just more intimate. I think the stage set-up had a lot to do with that and perhaps the glasses of wine I had beforehand. Either way, the story and concept of vampires always touches me. 'Touches' isn't even the accurate word I'm looking for. Really, it just turns me on. Sexually and just intellectually/mentally. One of my best friends is a contemporary dancer of whom I've seen a handful of shows but it has been over a year since the last dance show I have attended. Due to that, I'm disappointed in myself. I forget how much these performances move me, by really only paralyzing me. I am stuck in my chair in complete stillness, completely captivated. I lose myself in these things, much like I do film but maybe with more intensity because I am watching real live people instead of a screen. I also particularly enjoyed the clothing, I am not entirely remembering all of the clothing from my previous experience but I do know that I liked the ones more this recent time. The music always kicks ass and this time they had someone play the piano and sing Soundgarden's "Black Hole Sun" which I don't remember happening prior either. I immensely regret not going every year.

It is now 5:11pm and I am going home to get some noms.

Now it's 8:34pm and I'm at home studying and watching scary movies on television. Due to lack of consistent internet connection, I am going to finish this another day.

Alright, now it is Monday, over 24 hours since I initially started this post. Either way, I'm getting it done and hopefully before my class starts.

I also attended the Arizona Fetish Ball a couple weekends for the first time finally. I had a blasts and ran into a handful of friends. I enjoy the openness of the atmosphere and it's not quite like Transylvania where everyone stays in their cliques. Perhaps I will post photos in the future.

As I also mentioned, I paid a visit to the Arizona State Fair and enjoyed some Indian fry bread, overpriced alcoholic beverages, fun games, bumper cars, sights of a large group signing ASL, petting some goats, seeing the B-52's and Morris Day and the Time with the boyfriend, his mom, and others, and ending the night with a total rip off of a supposed "house of mirrors." I took a couple pictures of the concert which will also be posted soon. I was mostly amused the whole time by the vast contrast between the great choreographed dances of Morris Day and his crew as compared to the cheesy-don't-quite-know-what-they're-doing-even-after-all-this-time dances of the B-52's. Definitely amusing I'll say.

Just last weekend I saw Jackass 3D in 3D. I've been looking forward to seeing this film. Some people may particularly not care for, be disgusted and disturbed by, or completely annoyed by Jackass. But not me, I'll admit it. The movies and television series provoke an immense enjoyment in me. I personally love laughing and I especially love laughing my ass off, so this does the job quite well. Watching the new one only brought back fond memories of watching and conversing and even particularly being involved in similar acts of the previous ones. And I will say that although the 3D effect isn't similar to that of animated films [like Avatar] it was actually fun seeing it that way. It made the film and especially the cast more real. Hence, you could see the aging and weight that some of them have acquired over the years, heh. I think they ended the film and thus the trilogy very nicely. It was great.

This previous Friday night at the boyfriend's eventually lead us to a power outage for a few hours. After he had gone to bed, the darkness and lack of ability to finish watching Heroes lead me to be in the mood to read. Luckily the boyfriend has shelves stocked of books for me to choose from. I decided to pick a shorter novel to read, Shopgirl. This became my book for the night and later the next morning. I lit a candle on the nightstand and began my reading adventure. Whilst reading the novella, I was particularly paying attention to Steve Martin's writing style, and of course the content. I particularly liked the way he described the visuals and the actions that occurred which painted very vivid imagery in my mind and ones that were rather clearer than others I have experienced from reading. I guess I should say that I did finish the book the next day and that there will be some spoilers in the upcoming sentences. I also enjoyed the omniscient perspective that gave accurate and enlightening insights of both genders. Although this omniscient only gave us very little glimpses into the future, itty bitty foreshadowing here and there and widened it's perspective as time moved on. This is exactly parallel to the perspective and emotional/intellectual outlook of any conscious and self-concerned [not necessarily self-centered] individual. As time, experience, and situations advance and even pass, realizations grow. You readers know that well from the many posts of this blog. That same 'style' is portrayed in this novella, almost as if you're growing with the characters. I felt like I learned something just in the process of these fictional actions of these fictional characters. Needless to say, I liked the book. I wish to see the film, which I have actually seen parts of the end on television not too long ago. The utmost realism of the characters is astonishing, not that I haven't read anything more realistic, but his style, his characters, and his situations are all around us, possibly at an alarming rate. Quite frankly, I've been exactly in a situation he describes. Which sickens me to read it, but that's exactly why I give his writing such high regards. Now, the ending... affected me, although it may leave others not as affected. It brought tears to my eyes of the reality that some things just don't last, or work out no matter what love is there. Timing can be off, but technically was never on. People vary, their wants vary, their needs vary, their life's circumstances vary but yet other varying people come into their lives and although we want them or something from or of them and maybe we love them, but those variations are essentially the death of what they can be as one.
Some of this may be cryptic or even syntactically confusing, but I am not going to adjust that so you have a clear understanding because you can make whatever you want of this.

I'm in that several weeks to months phase of remembering several dreams a day. I go in and out of this phase of remembering more than one dream and being able to retell it more coherently and also allowing it to affect my mood for most of the morning or day. When I'm out of this phase I generally know I was dreaming and may remember parts of it but not as coherently to even bother replaying in my head and let alone expressing externally. And my moods aren't as affected by them. Yeah, a lot of them have been sexual, and generally strange, and even involving the same family members and friends [to be clear, the sexual aspect does not involve them]. I don't really have the time or desire to describe these dreams but I will make a list of various elements to trigger my memory in the future. Hole in bed, eating small white flowers, garden forest, mall, boyfriend, aunt and grandma, fellow student and intern, wine, odd talking or childlike animals, friends B and N, and so on.

I have been researching a bit for the upcoming election. I want to be educated and knowledgeable to speak for myself and make decisions that will affect my own future. As most people should feel the need to.

Here are some random articles that I have been tweeting and one from my Women in Other Cultures class. I want to also inform you that if you wish to view my twitter, you do not need to have an account, just simply click on the link on the sidebar on this blog or here.

A man marries two women within 24 hours.

Tips to get hired despite some red flags.

Article with video in regards to the recent suicides due to bullying on the basis of being gay. The video displays a councilmanan letting people know that things get better, while revealing a very personal and emotional story of his own experiences. I definitely urge you to watch it.

Ways to be cautious of ATM skimming.

McDonald's burger that resists decomposition for 6 months. Yeahhh....

Kid from Two and a Half Men signed contract to get $300,000 per episode. I really don't care how good that show or actor is, this irritates me as to yet the people who educate children don't get shit for money.

To sum up, I am currently stressed about where my life is heading. With the days marking past the halfway mark of the semester I am soon to graduate in over a month. And here I have also been unemployed for over 2 months. The unemployment part isn't so bad currently, but soon it will be a major issue. I started to create accounts with several job search engine sites and get that organized but I have yet to apply for anything specific. I really need to work on this, but the stress of it and the ticking clock make me more and more avoidant. It's a problem of mine and as much as I recognize it, I have a hard time tackling it. This is where I just really need help. Help.

I'm pretty sure I've mentioned it before, what my Halloween costume is for this year. Yes, Borat. As of a few days I ago I finally finalized my costume, I have all my essentials. After watching the film with the boyfriend to refresh my mind, I realized that there is a bit more to this costume than I previously thought. I have the voice down and a bunch of quotes but I completely forgot about his absolutely awkward personality. So, this Halloween, I will be ridiculously awkward, annoying, but likable, and Kazakhstanian. It shall be a blast!

I would also like to point out that I saw the film, It's Kind of a Funny Story. I really enjoyed it, in ways that I rather not spoil. Broken Social Scene is on the soundtrack. And some of the artwork depicted in the film are inspiring. As I always say when it's applicable, I am interested in reading the book.

And to finalize this post with a minor detail that serves as a future reminder to myself. Upon dating an English teacher-scratch that-an awesome English teacher, I have the desire to have him give me or even create a list of creative writing assignments for me to do for fun. I enjoy the challenge and opportunity. All of the assignments that I have been aware of that he has given have been very interesting and definitely fun. Hopefully I can get into that soon and start posting them here.

Hope the week is treating you all well!