6.22.2010

Killing Me Slowly

The other morning I had an epic dream about some sort of infection that was killing people. It was not a zombie infection but an instant death infection and the masses were idiots about how it operated. I had a better idea and was trying to save lives. A woman from the rescue crew was on a quad or something in the distance and me and 3 other young people were standing waiting to be helped. The woman was yelling something at us but she was to far and it was too dark for us [or mostly me] to see her to understand her. She noticed that and decided to start using American Sign Language, in which I signed back to her and then she came over to help us. At one point when people thought the infection was completely gone I ran into my father. His face was swollen and red from the constant crying...it was a horrible sight. Then I was walking with a coworker who decides to kick a glass window in of a mall/shop which held some of the infection. As I screamed "Noooooooooo!!!" I ran for my life and then my boyfriend woke me up. I was grateful for that.

As for this morning I had several dreams due to my constant waking up's and falling back asleep.
One involved me being in a setting that was very much similar to my dad's bedroom and bathroom although I don't feel like I was actually at my house, but it could have been possible. I went into my dad's bedroom and there I saw a girl. The girl was me, another completely separate and identical form of me. She had red and black medium length hair, which was exactly what I had in the dream too. It was straight hair and very much like what my hair was like in high school, split from the center of the front down the center to the back, with red on one side and black on the other. I saw her and I actually cannot remember if words were spoken but then my boyfriend comes into the room and he cannot see her. As he goes to lay on the bed next to me, I'm intensely watching her walk towards the bathroom and I'm telling him what I see. He was asking me if I was sure and that it's pretty, well, crazy. I'm staring straight at her as he asks me again if I can still see her...I lie because I don't want him to think I am crazy. She comes back over to the bed area and her and my boyfriend are very close together and for whatever reason I have an idea in my head. I decided to punch her in the head, but I punch my boyfriend in the process as well. I knock him and her out. She's on the floor and I'm trying to hold up my boyfriend. I'm basically trying to kill her...It's a little fuzzy but I know I threw more punches at her head and possibly attempted to drop her head on the ground. Pretty rough actually. I know my boyfriend woke up at some point and he may have helped me, but I don't know for sure.

Now that I have written those dreams out, I'm forgetting the other more recent ones from this morning...but I know they were just as crazy...

To dream that there is an outbreak, suggests that you are letting negativity rule your behavior. Feelings of resentment is taking over you.
To dream that you have an infection, indicates negative thoughts and ideas that you have internalized. Consider also where in the body is this infection for more significance.
To see someone else crying in your dream, may be a projection of your own feelings onto someone else. If you do not cry in your waking life, then seeing someone else cry may be a little easier to deal with then seeing yourself cry.
To see glass in your dream, symbolizes passivity or protection. You may be putting up an invisible barrier to protect yourself in a situation or relationship. If the glass is dirty, cloudy or discolored, then it suggests that you are not seeing something clearly. You need more clarity in a situation. To dream that you are drinking from a glass, is an omen of good luck.
To dream that you are looking through glass, represents your openness and non-defensiveness. Alternatively, you may be putting up an invisible emotional barrier around yourself.
To see broken glass in your dream, signifies disappointments and negative changes in your life. Alternatively, it could be symbolic of an aspect of your life that is in pieces. A relationship or situation has come to an abrupt and untimely end. If you are walking on broken glass, then it suggests that you will be experiencing some heartache or pain. You are unsure with how to proceed with your life.
To dream that you are running alone, refers to your determination and motivation in the pursuit of your goals. You will find success and rise above those around you. Alternatively, the dream may mean that you need to hurry up in making a decision.

To dream that you have a clone, suggests that you are either in harmony with or in conflict between ideas and decisions. Alternatively, the dream indicates that you are overburdened. You are spread to thin and feel that you need to clone yourself in order to get what you need to get done.
To dream that you kill someone, indicates that you are on the verge of losing your temper and self-control. Consider the person you have killed and ask yourself if you feel any rage towards him or her in your waking life. Your dream may be expressing some hidden anger. Alternatively, you may be trying to kill an aspect of yourself that is represented by the person killed. Identify the characteristics of this person and ask yourself which of these qualities you are trying to put an end to.
To dream that you have been killed, suggests that your actions are disconnected from your emotions and conscience. The dream refers to drastic changes that you are trying to make. There is a characteristic that you want to get rid of or a habit that you want to end within yourself. Killing represents the killing off of the old parts and old habits. Alternatively, the dream represents feelings of being let down or betrayed by someone in your waking life. You are feeling overwhelmed, shocked and disappointed.


That dream is really interesting...I mean, I had a "clone" of myself that could not be seen by anyone else, but yet was also tangible, so not a ghost...And I killed her, brutally. And interestingly, she did not put up a fight and I don't think she said a word in the entire dream... My only thoughts to the coming of this dream was a double date I went on last night with my friend from high school who was telling my boyfriend about how much of a bitch I was in high school [I asked her to do so]. Since my hair was very similar to how it was in high school, I take that was from the conversation at least. And maybe, he couldn't see her because he never saw that part of me and I chose to kill her, to end that. That's my best interpretation.

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