“The Way You Overcome Shyness is to Become So Wrapped Up in Something That You Forget to be Afraid”

I dreamt a million different things. I remember my dreams just about everyday, but am so overwhelmed by the details and due to lack of time, I don't try to really remember them. Not the way I used to. I would always, before getting out of bed and doing anything, replay the dream in my head. Now I just think about what I remember and sometimes throughout the day something will trigger yet another instance from the dream.

I never cease to be amused by my retardation. Currently, the retardation when around someone I find somewhat interesting and attractive. I probably look like a drug addict with my constant moving and fidgeting, which I do uncontrollably and possibly to ease the nerves or make it less obvious that my heart and body is shaking rapidly. I can't control it. It would be nice if I could hear over the loud noises my heart is making within my body. Shyness is a curse. Anyhow, I have an increasing reason to show up to class at all. I get nervous just thinking about it, it's exhilarating regardless.