Infatuation

I've realized what drives my passion when it comes to people/relationships. Obsession. I become totally obsessed with those people, the fire just keeps burning.
And for the first time I see how my obsessive side is unhealthy. I've always known that I'm an obsessive person, with things, ideas and the likes. But people, people in my life, it's unhealthy. I revolve myself around them. I lose touch of who I am because I no longer think for myself, I think about them. 24/7. They unquestionably and naturally take priority in my life. I worship them and somehow, in my mind, make myself inferior to them and others. This is a self realization that I do not like but finally the key to the pattern I've ultimately have been continuing. It is something I have to work on, tremendously.